When it rains it pours, no question about that. With options come choices and decisions and each have their own silver lining and shit stains. As I was saying to a friend last night, happiness is having options so I have no complaints.
Work is work and this year has been the toughest one since I started almost a decade ago. But one tough year is allowed after several stellar ones. And if not, then it’s a loud and clear sign for me to move on – woohoo! – and I’ve been hoping for that for a LONG time.
Socially, since I spent the time, I now know myself inside and out so deciding if I want to embark on a relationship or not is a very pragmatic decision as opposed to an emotional and physical reaction.
Having said that, the physical aspect is more important now than ever, physical compatibility is a must not simply for attraction but it’s a fundamental need for a solid fulfilling reciprocal relationship. Reciprocity being key and signs of whether someone is able and willing to reciprocate is obvious.. though so many of us, including myself, ignore the signs or make excuses for him/her. In the end, we get hurt for lying to ourself. I’ve dated selfish and self absorbed men, it’s almost worse than being with a liar. Never again.
I say it loud and proud – no company is better than shitty company 
Healthwise, I have an appointment with the physio ward at the hospital tomorrow to determine if I have nerve damage on my leg, if my compartment syndrome has gotten outta hand. I really want the pain to stop so I can train hard and add all the running I need to beef up my cardio, I just don’t think it’s gonna be that simple.
But we’ll see. I feel good, am looking better, feelin’ frisky and looking forward 
